Here, in the US, we turned our clocks back one hour last night. Maybe that’s why I’m a bit off today. 

Or maybe it’s because I had lots of dreams last night and actually remembered pieces and parts when I awoke. I rarely remember my dreams but I’m actively trying to change that. Lucid dreaming is a new goal of mine. So remembering a dream in which I was sitting on a beach and was visited by a dolphin and then an elephant was exciting for me. I don’t recall much more than that but it’s a start! And I choose to celebrate each beginning. Perhaps it’s all this dreaming that made me more tired today. 

I’m also feeling distracted and conflicted about telling my stories here. I’ve got a new blog post rolling around in my brain and I’m wondering if it’s ok to write it. Author Ann Lamott says “You own everything that happened to you. Tell your stories. If they wanted you to write kindly about them, they should have behaved better!” I love that statement and I agree with it. It helps a lot. But it doesn’t remove all the angst. Maybe I’ll just write it out and then decide. 

So instead of writing the thing that wants to be birthed onto a page, I’m avoiding it by rambling and whining and writing about anything BUT that. I really am the best procrastinator I know! Sigh. 

But since I choose to celebrate every beginning, I’m going to celebrate this post as a first step toward deeper and more meaningful writing. Rambling clears the cobwebs so that the light can finally shine upon the truth! This post is a stepping stone toward truth and ownership and giving voice and light to that which has been quietly waiting to be acknowledged. 

Thanks for your patience and for joining me on this ride. 

I’m glad you’re here 💜

****This post is part of the 2022 Nanopoblano November writing challenge. We commit to writing a blog post every day if it all possible and to supporting each other in our writing endeavors. All of my cheer pepper friends would appreciate your support. You can find all of their blogs HERE: