My Friend Died Last Night

On By dinahIn #NanoPoblano2024, Family, friends, heart space, love, self care


It’s Thanksgiving Day and I’m in shock. My friend died unexpectedly last night. We had an hour long conversation in the afternoon and we talked about the next time we would get together. At 10:30 PM our mutual friend called to tell me that my dear sister-friend had died at 7:30….just a few hours after we’d spoken, presumably from a massive heart attack….one day after her birthday.

Her birthday present is sitting on the counter. I’ve been compiling her gifts for a month.

And I don’t know what to do with myself. Grief makes me restless and edgy. I don’t want to sit in the house AND I can’t think of any place to go either. I don’t want to be quiet AND I can’t imagine having a conversation with anyone.

I want to go and sit with her husband but I don’t want to intrude.

Grief is impossible and cruel.

Every time someone I love dies, I wonder how it’ll be even remotely possible to do life without them.

We had plans for Christmas and for the summer.

My chest feels heavy and I feel like throwing up every time I think of the summer.

She brought a special kind of weird and wonderful magic into every room she entered. Her energy was big and bold and her laughter reverberated through the house and soaked into the furniture so that her magic was still palpable even after she’d gone home.

I know I’ll get through this death as I’ve gotten through every other death.

But right now….I don’t know how.

May her memory be forever a blessing.

27 thoughts on “My Friend Died Last Night”

      1. Grief is terrible. It breaks us open and our heart bleeds and sometimes we can let more people in, in the process, and sometimes it takes a while. This friend feels so significant and I’m grieving a bit with you, even as I cannot truly understand. I don’t know that I had a friend like that.

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      2. I feel her and have been able to hear her too. She was a gifted psychic and taught me to channel. She was my mentor and friend and sister…. And I still can’t imagine her not being physical:…thank you for your kindness. Love you 🙏

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  4. Oh, sweet friend, I am so very sorry for this loss! I hope, in time, you will write about her. About how you met and all the things you loved about her.

    For now, my heart aches for you, her family, and those whose lives she enriched. ❤️💔❤️

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  6. Oh Dinah, how very awful and sudden. I am so so so sorry for your loss. She sounds like a tremendous person, and to lose her so suddenly is equally shocking and devastating. Sending lots of love and hugs your way, my friend.

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  11. Oh Dinah, I want to reach across the distance between us and gather you into an enoromous hug, and cook some food, and sit under a tree together for a while.

    I’m so glad that you had such a loving and magical friend in your life.

    I’m so sorry that she’s gone now.

    You know where I am whenever you feel in need of a poem for grief’s arrival.

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