Home was always only my base.
Life mostly happened away from there…
There was school
There was college
There was work

Then it became time for me to create my own home
That one was so much more important
The home that I created was about safety and routine and predictability
Predictability has always felt safer

But even my own home was still more of a base.
Life continued to be more focused on what happened away from home…
Work
Friends
Service

And now things have changed again
Life is less focused away from home
I find myself having trouble with this adjustment…
Away has always felt more normal, more natural
Being home for too long, still feels a bit like failure

And what do I do with failure?

I’ve started to rethink it
I’ve tried to embrace more home time
I’m still trying and trying and trying

And this is what life does apparently
What is easy seems to never last too long.
What is difficult seems to stay until it becomes easier… And then it leaves as well

I guess it’s time to dance with the challenge of being home
We will start practicing our dance together
It will be strange and a bit awkward, but I will show up for practice on time every day anyway
And I will learn the new routine with this demanding partner

I’m sure that once I learn the steps
And after I can make it through without tripping or swearing
This dance partner will leave and a new one will show up

And then it will be time to learn another dance, to become aware of another challenge that needs to be embraced

Because that’s apparently what life does
The easy things don’t stay around long
And the hard things stay until they become easy….

I’m glad you’re here💜